kiss with a fist

we nag we blabber we advice
because we still care
apart from being disappointed being pissed
we still do care
so please for once listen to us
cause we're your friends
we would not mistreat you
drink drank drunk
when you're up and sober what do you get?
trust me, we are the only one who will always take care of you in whichever state you're in
im finding time to really talk to you.
what are friends for if we dont help each other.

death

death its something inevitable,
when kyn lost the person she love.
i was like why haven't she move on
now i will go through it myself
then i will answer my own question.
when you're getting close to death do you get cranky
and make everyone hate you?
because they will hate you now, but when you finally go
they will be the one who cry till their tears dry up.

dad,
you're like my first love
my first boyfriend.
i never imagine the day would finally arrive
you're 62 and i know how you re tired of living
the hard life, the hard way
but please fight one battle for me
and even if you fail i know you've tried
you've tried your very best
when i was young,
you shower me with love and gifts
even till today
you rarely scold me nor hit me
all due to an incident
when you hit me and i said you didn't love me.
i've been a very bad daughter
but i dont regret doing all that behind you
cause thats how my life is suppose to be
i rather keep it from you then hurt you
you would not like it if you see me crying
you have always thought me to be emotionally strong
and not let others bully me, especially guys
i love you, wont be the greater of the greatest word right now
but i really love you.
one more battle to fight before its time.

daze

half of the time in school
i was in my own world.
its like im consuming drugs.
i can't get you out of my mind.why?
one word ; fucked up!

disturbed

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d7UXuJRDTcg

i keep watching this video.
i do not know why
maybe i miss you
maybe i regret treating you harshly
maybe i felt guilty toying with your heart
maybe its cause the other day i dreamt of you
but definitely not because i wanna get back together
you came at the wrong moment in my life.
i don't see you around anymore.why?


but now, i can't stop thinking of him
oh come on! i met him in a club
up till now i kept thinking what "that was before i met you" really means
hopes too high, too high
honestly, i was really looking forward to sherlock holmes.

FML

I have lots to tell
but when i turn around,
i have no one to share my stories
i have always thought that 2010 will start off being great.
but i guess i got my hopes too high too soon .
i've been thinking alot lately
bout how much i really mean to the people around me?
and yes, the answers are clearer now
i mean no shit..
i need a fucking boyfriend!
i need someone who will be there for me without fail..
i believe karma is taking its toll on me
fcuk live!

party the year through

hell yeah its 2010.
let bygones be bygones.

new year resolution ;
get a boyfriend.
quit smoking
and enjoy life to the fullest

2009 has been erm... blah!
i forget whatever happen in early and mid 2009
but i sure do remember the end of it.
awesome people!!