i've been smoking like hell this few days
mum caught me dazing for the umpteenth time.
till she starts questioning me like a private investigator
everytime i daze, i kept questioning
was what i did a HUMONGOUS mistake till you have to deal with it this way?
i guess i should believe it when they say
'after a break up leave your ex, don't even treat him as a friend'
i've been yearning to tell you everything
it was just a lie i told sub-consciously
im not perfect.
and im prone of doing things without thinking.
i really yearn to tell you everything.
the tears never stop flowing down
thats how important you are to me.
went to cousin house today
since uncle was discharged.
yadayadayadayada
i was dazing the whole time there
then went for supper with family at Sembawang.
the naan bread gives me orgasm.
prolly catching movies with the 'sape last anak babi' clique
and this ITE website is fcuking killing me
it won't ease the procedures i have to take for the application
i effingly miss haikal and gang like truckloads!!!
do meet soon.haha mcm phm
' i fcukingly need a boyfriend. ' - fadilah
Stop and Stare
hey boy.
you don't understand how difficult it is to move on.
i hate being emo
i hate showing my emo attitude towards my friends
i hate this fcuking emo attitude of mine
thanks to you
now i cant forget what happen on v day
you are the first boy that make me cry on v day
i hope you're happy now.urgh!!!
i dun even have the motivation to retake my o'levels anymore
i fcuking hate myself for the fact that i love you.
i feel like dying.
K U D A, muka kau ade pasir
sentosa was awesome.(speechless)
with the unexpected fireworks from 'sounds of the seas'
it sure made my day.
the full moon was beautiful.
we had our sing along session and camwhoring session
we should do this often yea.
i'll update more when i get those pics yea
maira!!!
you manage to infect me with your flu.
you're influential.gahahaha
16/02/2008
Time spent with them really make my day
played pool at lucky plaza maira's treat
then to bugis then to arab street
for a big feast at Zam Zam maira's treat too
slacked there for awhile bitching bout u know who
what makes you think im flirting??
ii dun flirt, i already lost the skills
futhermore i still have feelings for that skaterboy
and im still recovering from this heartbreak
and please we are just friends
i don't intend to have any boyfriends
once bitten twice shy
shisha-ed with the guys cum our sing-a-long session
we talk crap..and then head home
took ab with dan and matin.
matin's treat.
and im looking forward for tuesday's outing!!!
oh skaterboy,
im still thinking of you
every night even in my dreams i may sound like a desperado but im not
i can't believe you did that to me
nevertheless i dun hate you,
you're forgiven
i never had such high hopes on someone before
you're the boy of my dreams
and its difficult for me to forget you.
i never intend to fall in love.
this tormentation is killing me
ps; im not being emo gahahaha
why you let me down? haha
i fcukingly need a study partner.
someone promise to be my study partner
at last habuk pon takda!
im like a stupid baboon browsing through every single things related with chem
i need a chem tutor!!!
i mean it
you're always on my mind this few days
and i can't seem to get rid of it.
everywhere i go i think of you
and its so hard for me to be happy
just so you know
im sure
i've fallen in love with you
and that i miss you truckloads
but you don't want to give me the chance
i wont let you down this time.
gosh i wish you were reading this.=(
can't hold it any longer
i was dumb enough to think you like me too.
honestly, i made a fool out of myself.
but i had such high hopes when you stand up for me
the night which my ex came to hurt me.
i have to agree with Dinno
' never give a 100% to someone.'
its hard for me to fall for someone.
however, i fall heels over head for you.
but i guess, hopes are nothing but worthless expectation
i thought you were different form guys i have met previously.
but my instincts let me down.
i hate this feeling of wanting to cry but at the same time i' m holding it.
i was looking forward for the valentine' s outing maira told me about
however, i wont be able to enjoy it like how i pictured it to be
i have to wait like 24 hrs till you have the guts to tell me
the reason for your silence.
whatever that has gotten in to you manage to hurt me,
however thanks for giving me the opportunity to get to know you.while it lasted
utterly embarrassed thinking of how foolish i was.
enough said
'and if you're listening, i miss you.
and you hear me now i need you.'- (meant for you)
