things running through my mind.
that is better left unsaid.
but i can't help it.\\
yes sometimes we wanna experience everything.
from drinking, to clubbing, to drugs, to smoking, to having sex.
i cannot deny i too have done 4 out of the five things listed.
but when i think of it, i achieve nothing doing this.
it is just me being stereotypical about life.
i always thought life being 18 was all this shit.
but after observing how disappointed my mum was,
i finally realise thet all this was just an honest mistake.
for sure smoking will be a bit difficult for me to quit.
considering the surrounding that im always in.
but trying won't harm.
dear friend, whoever you are or you might be
i might not have experience life in your shoes
but trust me what you are doing now, will not only hurt you but also people
that surrounds you.
trust me i want to help.
but i have run out of advices.
in this kind of things you can only help yourself\
as a friend i have done my part
its up to you now.
to say that i'm disappointed, that i've given up i would be stating the obvious.
if you want to continue doing what you have been doing by all means go ahead.
think it through, is it really worth it?
is this what you really want?
will it really help you solve your problem?
at the end of the day, you're the one who suffer,not us.
life is too short,do you really want it to go to waste?
i know im in no position to say all this, cause i ain't an angel myself.
but im doing this as your friend,i hope you really think it through.
people change,unexpectedly
kiss with a fist
we nag we blabber we advice
because we still care
apart from being disappointed being pissed
we still do care
so please for once listen to us
cause we're your friends
we would not mistreat you
drink drank drunk
when you're up and sober what do you get?
trust me, we are the only one who will always take care of you in whichever state you're in
im finding time to really talk to you.
what are friends for if we dont help each other.
death
death its something inevitable,
when kyn lost the person she love.
i was like why haven't she move on
now i will go through it myself
then i will answer my own question.
when you're getting close to death do you get cranky
and make everyone hate you?
because they will hate you now, but when you finally go
they will be the one who cry till their tears dry up.
dad,
you're like my first love
my first boyfriend.
i never imagine the day would finally arrive
you're 62 and i know how you re tired of living
the hard life, the hard way
but please fight one battle for me
and even if you fail i know you've tried
you've tried your very best
when i was young,
you shower me with love and gifts
even till today
you rarely scold me nor hit me
all due to an incident
when you hit me and i said you didn't love me.
i've been a very bad daughter
but i dont regret doing all that behind you
cause thats how my life is suppose to be
i rather keep it from you then hurt you
you would not like it if you see me crying
you have always thought me to be emotionally strong
and not let others bully me, especially guys
i love you, wont be the greater of the greatest word right now
but i really love you.
one more battle to fight before its time.
daze
half of the time in school
i was in my own world.
its like im consuming drugs.
i can't get you out of my mind.why?
one word ; fucked up!
disturbed
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d7UXuJRDTcg
i keep watching this video.
i do not know why
maybe i miss you
maybe i regret treating you harshly
maybe i felt guilty toying with your heart
maybe its cause the other day i dreamt of you
but definitely not because i wanna get back together
you came at the wrong moment in my life.
i don't see you around anymore.why?
but now, i can't stop thinking of him
oh come on! i met him in a club
up till now i kept thinking what "that was before i met you" really means
hopes too high, too high
honestly, i was really looking forward to sherlock holmes.
FML
I have lots to tell
but when i turn around,
i have no one to share my stories
i have always thought that 2010 will start off being great.
but i guess i got my hopes too high too soon .
i've been thinking alot lately
bout how much i really mean to the people around me?
and yes, the answers are clearer now
i mean no shit..
i need a fucking boyfriend!
i need someone who will be there for me without fail..
i believe karma is taking its toll on me
fcuk live!
party the year through
hell yeah its 2010.
let bygones be bygones.
new year resolution ;
get a boyfriend.
quit smoking
and enjoy life to the fullest
2009 has been erm... blah!
i forget whatever happen in early and mid 2009
but i sure do remember the end of it.
awesome people!!
so fine
unexpected
ibm wrote;
You know, thinking back, I really shouldn't have done what i did to you last time. I have left you in the lurk unannounced. I regret all of it. If I could turn back tthe hands of time, I would take away all of the tears and jeers. Seriously I would. Damn, I regret it.
fucking random, but i fucking cried,
i miss you alot!
i want time to turn back!
kindly unspoken
for the better or worse,
life still moves on.
endless thoughts.
ah fuck!
silence speaks louder than words
in life
LIFE.
we are too caught up with it,
that we sometimes forget who we are
in other times we pretend to be someone we' re not.
nothing was ever enough to fill our life.
shame that we don' t appreciate things around us.
we focus on what we want than what we need.
for once, be thankful.
at least you' re still breathing.
whatcha say?
today is gonna be the day that they gonna throw it back to you.
from people who thinks i need them to stand.
i can't jolly well do it better without you
after all i don't even need you.
i' m tired of aimless accusations, uninvited temper.
you just never change.
sympathy is what makes me stay and endure
i wanna live life for myself.
oh boy, i have expectations.
i' m strong enough to stand on my two feet without your support.
honest.
insomnia
can't sleep again.
when i close my eyes i see you
when i close my eyes i see myself in the middle of nowhere
and when i open my eyes, i see myself;
disappointed and clueless.
regret is not the best word.
it is not in my dictionary.
i seek comfort in nicotine
i need to lose weight
anorexia anyone?
i feel like running away
fuck fuck fuck fuck
the truth is i don't want any of this
no strings attach.
im pretending to be someone im not
how do i break this to you?
not the time?
i don't want things to get any deeper
love.
friend or foe?
its a four letter word with a hell lot of definition
and right now i just can't define it
nah uh that word don't ring any bells
at the end of the day,
you won't understand me.
