Stop and Stare

i've been smoking like hell this few days
mum caught me dazing for the umpteenth time.
till she starts questioning me like a private investigator
everytime i daze, i kept questioning
was what i did a HUMONGOUS mistake till you have to deal with it this way?
i guess i should believe it when they say
'after a break up leave your ex, don't even treat him as a friend'
i've been yearning to tell you everything
it was just a lie i told sub-consciously
im not perfect.
and im prone of doing things without thinking.
i really yearn to tell you everything.
the tears never stop flowing down
thats how important you are to me.




went to cousin house today
since uncle was discharged.
yadayadayadayada
i was dazing the whole time there
then went for supper with family at Sembawang.
the naan bread gives me orgasm.
prolly catching movies with the 'sape last anak babi' clique
and this ITE website is fcuking killing me
it won't ease the procedures i have to take for the application


i effingly miss haikal and gang like truckloads!!!
do meet soon.haha mcm phm


' i fcukingly need a boyfriend. ' - fadilah