expectations.
i live my live fill with expectations.
fuck life's too mundane, too hectic, too routined
i need surprises.
unexpected
ibm wrote;
You know, thinking back, I really shouldn't have done what i did to you last time. I have left you in the lurk unannounced. I regret all of it. If I could turn back tthe hands of time, I would take away all of the tears and jeers. Seriously I would. Damn, I regret it.
fucking random, but i fucking cried,
i miss you alot!
i want time to turn back!
kindly unspoken
for the better or worse,
life still moves on.
endless thoughts.
ah fuck!
silence speaks louder than words
in life
LIFE.
we are too caught up with it,
that we sometimes forget who we are
in other times we pretend to be someone we' re not.
nothing was ever enough to fill our life.
shame that we don' t appreciate things around us.
we focus on what we want than what we need.
for once, be thankful.
at least you' re still breathing.
whatcha say?
today is gonna be the day that they gonna throw it back to you.
from people who thinks i need them to stand.
i can't jolly well do it better without you
after all i don't even need you.
i' m tired of aimless accusations, uninvited temper.
you just never change.
sympathy is what makes me stay and endure
i wanna live life for myself.
oh boy, i have expectations.
i' m strong enough to stand on my two feet without your support.
honest.
insomnia
can't sleep again.
when i close my eyes i see you
when i close my eyes i see myself in the middle of nowhere
and when i open my eyes, i see myself;
disappointed and clueless.
regret is not the best word.
it is not in my dictionary.
i seek comfort in nicotine
i need to lose weight
anorexia anyone?
i feel like running away
fuck fuck fuck fuck
the truth is i don't want any of this
no strings attach.
im pretending to be someone im not
how do i break this to you?
not the time?
i don't want things to get any deeper
love.
friend or foe?
its a four letter word with a hell lot of definition
and right now i just can't define it
nah uh that word don't ring any bells
at the end of the day,
you won't understand me.
every you and every me
going with the flow
not sure what i want
hate thinking bout you
chain smoking this few days
disturbed about?
lots to say, planning how to tell.
i love my bf? do i ?
18 and yet clueless.
can i be alone?
friends only please
nidji is coming to singapore 17 sept
no money
nk hamper tk?
i cant sleep
tired like fuck
ah fuck!
these words that kept me strong
As I lay here and dream of what we could be.
Is this a dream inside my reality?
A beautiful dream with my pristine lover
She sets me at my best and sometimes I surrender.
To the girl who wears her heart on a sleeve
I wished I was the guy that anything she'd risk
And when there is really none of me to do,
I swear I sit down and always think of you.
So we put our emotions all on the line,
And sometimes I wish that she would forever be mine.
Like lovers on drugs; I'm Romeo and she's Juliet,
Our love will always be one perfect secret.
- IBM
these are the words that kept me strong.
i hear your voice reciting this poem to me
these words are pillars that held me upright
motivation for me to move on
i always dream that we meet.
i told you i can't move on
i never deal with it
i just wanna hear your voice again
i just wanna feel those warm hugs again
altough i hate you
but i can't deny the love is greater than the hate
i was never taught to hate someone.
cause life's a ball
You know you can't give me what I need
And even though you mean so much to me
I can't wait through everything -
they say time will heal everything.
well tell them they can go suck balls
up till now i still can't forget him
when i wake up, or when im asleep
he's clouding up my mind
ah fuck! like he's reading this \
iqbal i miss you alot.
life's great, apart from the shitty timetable for school
im sexcited for augustus!
come quick please
i wish
I'm bleeding, I'm drowning, I'm breaking,
He could not sit still long enough to listen
Do you know what I think all these nights when I can't sleep, sleep at all
Slowly I close my eyes
My thoughts they fly away to you no matter what I do
I wish I could turn back time
Back to the time when you were mine I wish
I wish the day, the day you went away never had happened baby
I wish the stars, the stars in heaven would come down to me
So I could give them to you
Tell me then would you be lovin' me like I wish
It's so hard when you love someone this much
But you just don't how, how to love him the right way
If you could see, what you've done to me
What you've done to my heart, what you've done to my sould baby
All of my mind and all of my body then you sould know
Why I can't let go and baby I
I wish the day, the day you went away never had happened baby
I wish the stars. the stars in heaven would come down to me
So I could give them to you
Tell me then would you be lovin' me like I wish
I don't know what you want me to do
To prove my love is real for you
I don't know what you want me do say baby
There is no if's or maybe's
All I want is you 'cause baby you are my only wish
kurt cobain and etc.
KURT COBAIN
by far he is the god of rock
too bad he's not around anymore.
im trying to get a poster of him.
but it cause a bomb nowadays/
and i wanna step my foot on grand canyon
before i die.
the view is so fucking nice.
orgasm liao
i didn't expect singapore to be this spectacular during night time
i think im kental cause i have no facebook account ahaha
lazy wanna create account la
ok im dead tired.
pie pie!
clowns are stupid!
dear iqbal
I MISS YOU LIKE HELL,
your hugs, your jokes, your company
playing the thumb game with you
giving you the thumb lock, slapping you
bringing me to places i've never been to
i miss you calling me baby,
i miss sitting by the riverside with you
you were perfect in every way
I MISS You
quoted
"Baby i love you and I'll never let you go.
At times, we may lose that faith in between but be rest assured that the strength will come back in time so that everything can run smoothly back again.
There's a silver lining on each grey cloud. And the night is definitely the darkest just before daybreak."
"baby...i love u very much.
i know lately i have not been myself.
I have not been giving u the adequate attention that you need from you. I am so very very sorry for that. I didnt mean it to happen. I love you very much. i will make up for the loss time one day but just not now. Because now, as ive told you, my finances are very low and I cant seem to go anywhere without the moolahs. Its like im dead without it. I know you will say that we can not need money when we meet. Yes mmg betul duit tak ya pakai kalau jumpe, tapi tak best kan. Kalau nak pi makan ke, minum air ke...takde duit camne? And I am really that broke at this current moment. Coke pun I tak mampu beli cam i cakap time tu.
Jadi I harap u dapat faham, nanti kalau my finances dah ok balik, then we can return to the period where i dance around you almost every day.
Alrite sweetz ?"
what happen to all these promises?
you dont promise me something and walk away
be a man of your words
or is these just plain sweet talks?
are you a contradictor?
are you a liar?
im ending it now.
find me if you wish
what happen to all these promises?
you dont promise me something and walk away
be a man of your words
or is these just plain sweet talks?
are you a contradictor?
are you a liar?
im ending it now.
find me if you wish
honest.
you've been a part of me so long
just not the part that keeps me strong
you've been a part of me, and i know
that i will miss you when you go
'im willing to go through the ups and downs with you
not only the ups.
give me the chance to undergo it with you
pls, i beg '
out of frustration
he is a sweet talking motherfucker
whats new bout guys/.
you can stop the changes.
but you choose to ignore it.
it sucks to know you're the third party.
at the end of the day,
'what did i do to deserve this?'
its just 3 mths
i miss this.
im at my lowest of the lowest point in life
and you cant even be here for me.
you choose not to be here for me
im not as optimistic as you .
if i have to go, im sorry
and you cant even be here for me.
you choose not to be here for me
im not as optimistic as you .
if i have to go, im sorry
april 24th.
school was fun.
it has always been fun.
its friday and i have no shifts.
0__0 "
rotting at home is gonna be boring.
i miss meyra and sakina like alot.
ah fuck my eyes are heavy.
i think i better catch on my sleep.
and perhaps continue blogging at night.
im running out of patience
I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart.
i nearly said this.
'i regret being with you.cause its still similar to the past relationship'
i know things would change if i were to say this.
i need to spent time with you too.
for everything ;
im sorry
everyone has secrets
are you keeping any secrets from your friends?
yes plenty of it
do you have a friend that tells everything bout you to your enemy ?
i know i have.
does your bf's friend thinks you're a control freak?
i know she assumes that way
do you feel like confronting your friend?
yes!
but for the moment i think silence is best.
i don't need hypocrites.
what are your fears?
For me ;
small spaces with no exits.
heights.
death.
rejection.
i got a five hour shift at 3.
fcuk im too shagged to go to work
this job is boring
if you eat,sleep,smell coffee for 7 mths
but the partners keep me coming baybeh
altough im tired
just being around them rejuvenates me.
fcuk im too shagged to go to work
this job is boring
if you eat,sleep,smell coffee for 7 mths
but the partners keep me coming baybeh
altough im tired
just being around them rejuvenates me.
lets take a ride in my yellow submarine
im gonna meet these boys soon.\
i can't wait!!!
2009 has been fun.
holidays will end soon
but for now its all work and more work
to earn those xtra buckeroos
meet up soon 'sape last anak babi' clique
im missing you guys
im loving my schedule. morning shifts all the way/
just pray that i can wake up...
holidays will end soon
but for now its all work and more work
to earn those xtra buckeroos
meet up soon 'sape last anak babi' clique
im missing you guys
im loving my schedule. morning shifts all the way/
just pray that i can wake up...
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